Today I get to keep my 6-year-old niece and 8-year-old nephew overnight and I am so excited about it! They make me so very happy. :-) I am blessed to have such loving children in my life. Their parents, my brother and sister-in-law, who I feel close enough to to call my sister, are wonderful people who make me and my husband feel so very loved! We look forward to being with them every chance we can. Of all of my siblings, I feel the most genuine love from this brother and "sister" than any other and it feels good to be really special to and be able to count on someone. I love their children with all of my heart and they make me feel special. It is always a wondeful feeling to have them over because I cannot have children of my own and they help fill that void. This family lifts me and my husband up more than anyone might realize and we are thankful to God for the blessing of them in our lives.

He pops open another beer, I think it's his eighth tonight. I secretly cry when think about what his liver must look like. This man, my husband, the man I am supposed to spend the rest of my life with is wasting his by drinking. I feel robbed of what a marriage is supposed to be. I am scared each day that day will be his last because the alcohol has taken over his liver. He says he wants to quit but every attempt has failed. I pray so hard for an answer, but he continues to drink. I love this man with all of my heart but I never wanted to be married to a chronic drinker. What can I do for him? He is stubborn and just won't stop. I cannot leave him. That is not an option. I'm trapped but want so badly to help him while I also want a better life for myself...

I am a first-time blogger and I have no clue what it is all about. I always have a lot of things in my head that I might want to talk about, but not particularly with other people, so I figure I can write stuff here from time to time. God is my light and His love and sacrifice for me is what keeps me going each and every day. However; even when you have a good faith, you can fall into a dark place or have unhappiness. I feel I can use this blog best to talk about those kind of things when they happen in my life. I am hopeful blogging will be an avenue for me to get through some of the emptiness and loneliness that hangs in my heart sometimes. I guess that is all I have to say for now. I will be writing back soon.